Patience is a virtue of the Jedi

I love Star Wars, have ever since I was a kid. I had all those micro machines of little Star Wars spaceships and Ryan had all the Star Trek ones. I love the original trilogy and mostly loved the new one because of Hayden Christensen. He played Anakin and Anakin becomes Darth Vader.

He mainly becomes Darth Vader because he is prideful and greedy and impatient. He knows he has gifts and he is just too eager to use them so he becomes discontent and impatient and it leads to his downfall. I think I liked Anakin because I could relate on some level. I always want life to happen NOW. I don't want to wait. I don't want to be content. I want the world to always be at my finger tips.

Now I am learning to be patient. And to be content. And to be satisfied with where God has me. It's a hard, hard lesson. It's tough. Especially because many of my friends have already started their own grand adventures and all I want to do either be somewhere designing influential masterpieces or taking pictures to touch and change the world. But God continues to say "wait" or "not yet" or "be patient" or "enjoy this moment" or "rest" or "just be" or "be present" or "soon, but not now" or "be content here first."

This is not my strength. It's nowhere near my strength. I am ADD, always on the go, always not sleeping, always doing something, accomplishing something. That's who I am. Patience, inner peace, contentment, being present, just being...those things have never been my strength, but every week I am learning more and more on how to make it a strength.

I had a vision yesterday while I was praying of a tree roots in the ground and God just saying, right now I'm building your foundation, establishing your roots. Soon, but not now. Not yet.