I had to go back to NYC to attend an information meeting for a potential grad school program. I decided to head south afterward instead of my usual north. Typically, I would just take a bus up to DC and spend a few days there but decided to spend the weekend in Boston and then look at RISD during the week.
Where Noel lives is a tad bit too small town for me and Boston sometimes is a bit tiny for my taste, but it was nice to get away again. I'm continually left speechless at God's timing. When I initially figured out I had to go back to NYC for a meeting, I was a little frustrated because I had literally just gotten back on an airplane for LA and then last week, after breakdown numero tres, it felt like perfect timing to go out and get my perspective refreshed. And it was.
And it was interesting to really truly realize that I'm not the same person I was a year ago. Last year I would have been all about success and achievement and trying to "live the life" and now I'm all about love and justice and peace and God and doing whatever makes you happy and whatever it is that God wants you to do. I never really cared about all those extra things except for that's what everyone told me to care about because I have this talent and because I'm good at this thing. But being good at something and having talent will only take you so far. It's happiness and it's love and it's inner peace and world justice that will take you places that help you feel truly happy and you feel like you are truly being rewarded for the work that you are doing.
Personal accolades are nice, but they've never been for me. Success has never been for me. I was the kid who was given the spotlight but didn't want it. I was the kid that was told to shoot 20 times in a game but passed 20 times and got benched. I'm finally learning to aligning my heart and my head and it's a beautiful thing to finally be able to be happy in the life that I'm living because I'm doing what I want to do.
