And it made me cry, I probably would have sobbed if I was at a coffee shop...the thing about our friendship has never really been what we have in common (though we have a lot) and it's never really been about the activities that we're doing (even though most of the time in college they were together), we just support each other. We've been through hell together in the last four years--anyone who knows us knows that. And we just clicked instantly, miraculously--it was all God and it's always been God.
I can't begin to tell you how amazing God-driven friendships are. Or how much I've fought it for so long. I use to think that God was this separate compartment in my life, necessary for when things got tough (and they were tough a lot; it makes sense why now) and I use to think that maybe he didn't really care about the people he put around me and he didn't really care about my life. But I've really in the last two years begun to see his power and his goodness and his strength and his love for me.
I previously mentioned that I've had a lot of friends. I get bored easily. I don't like commitment. I'm afraid of closeness. Those were all excuses I had for bailing when things got tough or when the other person bailed cause they were sick of me. But with her, I had to teach myself to stay put, to just be, to stick it through and it is by far was the best things I've ever done with my life (And I've done a lot of stuff with my life so believe me on that one!).
But I haven't really felt like we were best friends until this year, which is weird because we lived 3,000 miles away from each, saw each other 3 times, and probably talked on the phone once a week, if not once every two weeks. One could argue that distances makes the heart grow fonder and maybe it's true, but more so I think that God is just working in us so much that now we can really, truly be best friends. There's this bond between our hearts AND our souls that I know is only possible between two truly God-fearing Christ followers.
I can't tell you how sweet it is, how wonderful it is. It's not perfect, by far. We still fight a lot because Satan does exist and he will try to come between us. There's still insecurity and doubt because of the enemy. There's still fear and trust issues because the devil doesn't want God-driven relationships. But the truth of the matter comes down to it--there's no fear in perfect love, God's perfect love for us and our perfect love for him.
