I bought a new portrait lens. It was incredible expensive but it's suppose to be amazing. I took a few test shots last night with it before realizing I don't have a filter to protect the lens and putting away and they were amazing!
It was a hard decision because while I've been shooting a lot and have been asked to shoot a lot, I've also been trying to save money to leave California and this definitely put a damper into that. But I have been doing a ton of portrait shots and I needed a more professional camera for it with a better F stop (this one has f1.8!) so I know it was totally worth it but it's hard, very hard.
It's hard to be content and be OK with the place that I'm at with life. I feel like I should be doing more or at least, if not, be more settled in life. It's hard to be in the crossroad for so long and not think that when I get out of here then I'll be happy. That's definitely not true. I am very happy. But it's easy to fall into a thought process of discontentment and dissatisfaction and lose peace. It's hard because I feel like I'm on the brink of something BIG but I need and want to stay in a place of the moment, a place of the present, a place of contentment and peace and not think that when I get to B then I'll be better than where I am in A. Make sense?
