Look, your worship!

"Garbage chute. Really wonderful idea. What an incredible smell you've discovered! Let's get out of here! Get away from there.."

Well said, my friend Han Solo.

If one more person puts pressure or expectations on me, I swear I will not just snap, but I'll probably run away to Africa or some place far and crazy and away from everyone. I'm going crazy...

Hawaii, maybe, Carrie? ;) (And I was just in Boston last week, crazy how fast things get crazy and duty calls.)

God, please help me. I'm not sure I can live like this anymore...

NOW VERY VERY TIRED OF WORKING...

Hmmm...there's nothing like some good ol' fashion hard work to remind you of how not hard working you've been.

At least now my butt is back in business!

Here's a photo from the shoot yesterday.

Now, back to work...I just keep thinking what Karen tells me: work hard now so you can play more later.

Snippet from Relevant Mag: "Waiting on God."

It's easy to forget in the midst of struggle, but God is a heavenly father who wants the best for His kids. We need to more intentionally embrace difficult times and loss, because they can get our attention. God can use those challenges to refine us, strengthen us and help us grow.

God puts dreams in our hearts, so it's human nature to get frustrated when things don't happen according to plan. But remember we only see in part. We don't know the whole story yet, and in the midst of hard seasons, we need to be mindful of the bigger picture of what God might be doing in us. Thankfully, Romans 8:28 doesn't have conditions: "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose."

Feisty Play

BYU get manhandled by Elizabeth Lambert. She displayed horrible sportsmanship and even pulled a girl down by her pony tail. She is suspended indefinitely...dude!!!

I can't say anything but DUDE!!!

DUDE!!!!!!!!!

Tired of Working

Right on schedule, I'm tired of working and I still have like 35 pages left on this magazine. Boo! I'm so ready to be doing something else... Tomorrow is a photo shoot so that excites me but then it's back to this thing.

Ahhh! Dang my ADD. Which would I rather do right now--take photos or design?

I don't know. It's the conflict of my life. I think I would easily get tired of both. Story of my life. Again.

I do know that I want this film camera. I think it would be fun to mess around with. Ya? Ya! 

You control your own destiny

I've been watching a lot of Friday Night Light lately (I have season 1 on DVD) and I still cry even though I know already what's going to happen.

I've pretty much decided Connie Britton is amazing in her portrayal of a coach's wife. She makes it so exciting and enticing, to say the least. But that's of course, another story.

Anyway, one of the episodes the coach tells his team before the game, "You control your destiny."

And it's true. As much as what we do with our lives is trying to decide if we are following God's will, we are ultimately choosing our own destiny. We pick where we go. We pick who we hang out. What city we live in. What car we drive. Everything.

God gives us the desires of our hearts and he puts those desires in our heart but ultimately we must decide whether or not our destiny is to follow him. To consider everything rubbish except knowing Jesus Christ.

Love is...only worth something when you give it away.

Love. It's kind of this sickening thing that I never wanted to really think about. But recently I've had a lot of friends start getting involved or even getting engaged so I've had to think about it and think about what it really means to love someone and to be loved by someone.

So I have this friend, we'll name her Felicity (her name has been changed to protect the innocent). She recently started dating a man named Noel. He treats her like an absolute princess. She drove down to San Diego to hang out with him and he had the entire day planned--they went to an art show and they went wine tasting and they had a picnic and a nice dinner with wine and they watched the sunset on the beach. When it was time for "Felicity" to go home "Noel" packed her car with water and coffee and mixed CDs for the drive home and when she got home she found chocolate and roses in her trunk.

Like OMG, isn't that adorable? This is the kind of man that we should want and we should wait for, but how often do we settle? How often do we convince ourselves that we're not worth being adored by someone?

The story made me cry because I realized that I want to be at a point where I can accept adoration like that. Where I can accept that someone loves me and wants to be with me and adores me and respects me and accepts me--that I'm worth being treated like a princess.

The way that we get to a point like this isn't by putting ourselves out there for boys but being able to give love away, being able to give love because that's the only way that we are able to receive it. Trusting God for not only his protection and his guarding of our hearts, but trusting him as we give love away. Trusting God's love for us. And that's when we can not only fully give love, but we can fully receive love and we can receive beautiful gift and adoration from a man that God loves too.